^ noneget reference
Blissmo actually did something right and made me want to post about why I blog. I’ll tell ya right off, unlike her, I didn’t do it out of any interest in anime blogs. While this is my first wordpress blog, I’ve been making random pages and sites with every damn host that comes to mind – all in the name of internet fame. It’s something I’ve been trying for 4 years to achieve. It’s not about the fame itself – my ultimate goal is and always has been to have an opinion with authority behind it. What it comes down to is my obsession with making everyone become like me, stemming likely from childhood ostracizing. If there is one thing I want, it’s for other people to be moved by things which move me. I want other people to see and hear what I do, and experience the beauty of those things. This stems from my desire to find someone who’s like myself, most likely set off by some childhood ostracizing. To put it in context you can easily understand, I want to be the Epert of anime. After all, I’ve been writing reviews for-fucking-ever. In fact, before I made this blog, I was working a music review site on freewebs (Digital Boy Reviews, hence my email address.) It didn’t have a feature to show me hits, though, and there were no comments, and I never got any emails, so I just assumed no one was actually reading it and abandoned it.
Well, last year when I started getting back into anime and was hanging out on the Megatokyo forums, I started to notice that a bunch of people had blogs, and most seemed to be hosted on WordPress. Never one to be left out, I immediately started this blog – being able to see my hit count and comments has been a major driving force to keep me going with it, because I’m a whore for recognition and couldn’t have done it otherwise.
It does make me sad, in a way, because I am much more proud of things like my FUCKING YOUTUBE VIDEOS which get like NO FUCKING HITS and my reviews for which I currently have no home. However, I am quite proud of the recognition this blog gets, even if I get in one day the hits it’s taken my videos a FUCKING YEAR to get.
(i’ve been doing some epic link-dropping lately…)